Tuesday, June 29, 2004

NO WONDER the Singapore government bans fuking chewing gum. ITS TO PREVENT FAGGOTS FROM PUTTING THEIR FUKING CHEWING GUM ON WALLS or anywhere else! FUK LARR.. 2 days of ill luck in a row. DAMMIT!

I leaned on the pillar while waiting for the bus today. Guess what? SOme bloody fuker put his fuking chewing gum on the pillar! AND IT GOT ONTO MY UNIFORM!! THAT IS DAMN DISGUSTING! I hope the person who did it choked on his/her chewing gum.. CHOKES! I look like a fool with one brown patch of chewing gum on my back! MUST BE ONE OF THEM STUPID POLY people (no offense).. who smoke all day.. polluting the air and littering all over the dover mrt station with their stupid cigratte butts.
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Monday, June 28, 2004

I hate lizards!! STUPID LIZARD!! I was minding my own business in the lift today when suddenly I felt something drop on my head! I was like.. erm. whats that? is that water? maybe aircon leaking or whatever. So i stoned for 2 -3 seconds. Didnt know what to do. Then i looked in the mirror. Is that chewing gum? It looks light brown.. like wriggly's. Wait a minute. THOSE ARE EYES!! AND A TAIL! So i started jumping around to get the lizard off.

I was about to impale it with the spikes(shoes) i just bought from tim. How convenient. THEN.. SOMEBODY HAD TO WALK INTO THE LIFT! DAMMIT! Lucky bastard. So it crawled up the side of the lift. And i stepped out. bah.
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Saturday, June 26, 2004

SWIFT is a budget organisation. haha.. learnt that at todays race. No pistol. No officials were there until like 15minutes before the race. People playing soccer on the track just before the race was about to start. Oh... did i mention? No runners as well. hehe.. joking. It was like an acsi and sengkang sec timetrial. There were a few other runners there as well.. but.. it didnt feel like a race :p durrh

Did a pretty decent timing as well. Came in first but the medal is coming next week! haha.. budget budget. Everyone did pretty well today i guess.. alot of people achieved personal bests. so.. GOOD RUN everybody!


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Friday, June 25, 2004

Hell: You are most likely not an evil or bad
person, but are quite troubled at the moment.
Something is probably bothering you intensly.
With so much emotion bottled up, Hell will let
you release your anger. (please rate my quiz)


**Where will you go when you die?**(now with pics)
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what?!
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Sunday, June 20, 2004

Didn't improve.. neither did i slow down. So.. i guess that kinda sucks. Everyone is improving and i was stuck for 2 weeks in the stupid gym cycling .. alone sometimes. This is bad. Bad bad bad.

The race was not bad. Not great. Had a considerable amount of strength until the 650metre mark. That was when 2 weeks of no running kicked in i guess. Lactic buildup and the legs refused to move. And i lost one position... ): Felt that i could have pushed much harder towards the end... that last stretch i didd today was just pathetic. Probably would be able to shave off 2 - 3 seconds with some training.

Its nice to run again.
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Saturday, June 19, 2004

THE SCARIEST THING JUST HAPPENED TO ME.
i was almost in tears.
i was trembling in fear as i desperately clicked away.

It all began about 1 hour ago.
I ran a simple program which clears internet history.. etc. Then horror struck.
IT STARTED ERASING "MY DOCUMENTS" and EVERYTHING INSIDE!!
MY HOLIDAY HOMEWORK which took me the ENTIRE HOLIDAY TO FINISH!!
MY ESSAYS AND POEMS AND PROJECTS for the whole year!!
MY DESIGNS.. and MY PICTURES!!
ALLL FUKING GOONE!!!
(NO... IT WASNT IN THE RECYCLE BIN!!)

I was so worried... in fact in still traumatised now.
I slammed my fist onto the floor thinking... HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID!!
JUST IN A SPLIT SECOND... A whole year's worth of work. Disappeared into thin air.
I'm not joking.. i could feel the tears swelling up near my eyes.

I Immediately went to the 'system restore' button. Confident that i could get back my lost files. AFTEr 3 attempts. NO CHANGE. IT DIDNT WORK! My brain stopped functioning. I couldnt think straight. I was so worried... i cannot describe it in words.

After calming myself down alittle(just alittle.. cos i was fuming and scared shit-less at the same time).. i searched for 45 mins.

typing 'recover lost files' ... and 'recovering shredded files'... 'cracks and serials for mediaRECOVER' in google... yahoo..
EVERY POSSIBLE SEARCH ENGINE
to absolutely no avail.

Extremely flustered.
I had broken down.
I was delirious and talking to myself (really!)
I didn't know what to do... what to think..


I hoped i was in one of those bad dreams.
where i wake up any minute.
But i wasn't.
This is reality.
I got more aggitated and vexed as time passed.

So... i reluctantly went to shower... hoping to wake myself up.
The problem was still there. Haunting me. I can safely say i took less than 3 minutes to bathe just now. I just wanted to run away. From this complicated world.

I started saying f-words and sh!t to myself.
I was muttering 'stupid technology'



I sat down in my room. All alone. 'i hope i had salvaged some of my documents before..' Anything. I just wanted to reduce the damage done.. if possible at all..
I slammed my head onto the table and tears started forming again.


One final attempt.
Do or die. i tried to recall what other techniques which could enable me to recover my lost files. Then it struck me.

NORTON PROTECTED RECYCLE BIN!! I LOVE YOU!!
My hands trembled with excitement as i warily clicked on the files which looked familiar. YES! This is the file! Suddenly the burden had been lifted off me... I felt as if i could fly. So i clicked and clicked .. recover ..recover all the lost files. In total. I recovered...

546 files. yes. 546. It scares my just thinking about what might have happened...

This calls for a celebration.

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Friday, June 18, 2004

GO Greece! Go England! Go Spain! Go France!
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Punk'd.
Can't believe i fell for it.
Can't believe i was tricked by not 1.. not 2.. but 3 of my teammates~!
I knew leon was bluffing.. but i didnt know xide and seb were in on it too!!!

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

OH man.. im lost and confused. And i found my handphone. Nobody called... Hope i survive the wrath of Mr. Bongard tomorrow. Hope he listens to my explaination. Being chewed up by him isnt a great sensation... especially when he won't listen to your story. You just stand there... trying to defend yourself against his booming voice... Eaten up alive.
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SORRY Leon.. i overreacted this morning. Maybe cos i felt that i hadnt done anything wrong yet i was still gonna get screwed. I really cant find my handphone since last night. Which was probably the reason everyone is so angry. I think they tried calling last night to inform me. I admit im wrong there.. for not looking after my belongings. But still.. isnt calling after 9 p.m. abit too LATE?! especially when i was told only the steeple people needed to go down? And when he called me in the afternoon... why couldnt he tell me then? He didnt say anything about everyone needing to come this morning...

itsnot fair.
sorry leon
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Monday, June 14, 2004

LIBRARY DAAAY

HMPH!! Seb just said that 'this dying soul' by dream theater not nice.. YOU watch out! i'll make sure the wet toliet paper will cover your entire shirt next time! Today was nothing ! nothing~ Should have thrown more stuff at you for throwing that ice cube at my jaws .. *rubs jaw* ouch..

The library at jurong east rox!! its so high tech and new.. and so cool! Like really cool as in not hot... Stupid weather so hot today. Seb and me went there today cos he wanted to return his library book. DId you know that you can use your IC to borrow books?! WOOOO!! i didnt know that! Too bad i had an OVERDUE BOOK.. so i COULDNT borrow... Silly Seb.. eating some yucky spinach egg pie thingy from delifrance. YOu didnt even know WHAT it was until i looked at the receipt lor.. HAIZ.. what to do. AIRHEEAD.

Even airheads are useful eh? Seb so smart.. helped me locate the section for diseases and viruses.

So anyway.. i bid seb farewell so that he could go and train.. AGAIN! crazy arse.. run two hard workouts in one day. Just when i reached home.. mud rawwwker marcus called and asked me to go to his house and rawwwwk! LIKE... HOW CAN I TURN DOWN AN INVITATION TO JUST CHILL AND PLAY THE GUITAR?! so i went there. ELECTRIC GUITARS ARE SOOO FUN TO PLAY! AND simple too. DAMN FUN... hit the drum and play the guitar! after that we went to ... ORCHARD LIBRARY!! to do project with some other dudes.. woohoo! library daY! THat library also very high tech and new. So we just sat down in one corner and discussed about our project! without even borrowing a single book! yiipppee!!

AANd now.. my ankle hurts. Shouldnt have run today
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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

What am I doing here? Why am I here? I want to go overseas and not stay in Singapore... Anywhere... anywhere. Just away from this place. I don't want to waste another holiday. Sitting infront of the computer. Doing holiday homework... Going to ttraining... going out for movies sometimes. This is definitely not my ideal holiday. Not million years. Gross.. get me outta here!!

sigh. Holidays ending soon. I must find something exhilarating to do before I die of boredom.
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Day 2
subject:Kevin
Status: frustrated

argh .. i dont kknow how much of this torture i can take. Having so many cool songs staring you in the face and not being able to click on them is terrible! I want my dream theater. I had enough of slow and normal songs. I wonder how much longer i can survive without succumbing to the pressure. Maybe i should just put an end to all this and click. hmmm..
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Monday, June 07, 2004

Backmasking sucks.

I'm feeling wacky today... so i gonna do an experiment. A dangerous and maybe fatal experiment. I'm gonna abstain from 'crazy' music and switch to peaceful.. 'normal' music for one week. Yes. ONE ENTIRE WEEK. I dont know how im going to do it. NO Dream theater... no metallica.. no rammstein. Argh. Just thinking about it sends shivers down my spine. But hey... its the holidays and im bored. yep. so here goes. i'll record any changes (if any) here. This is going to be interesting... hmmm..
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Sunday, June 06, 2004

This Dying Soul

Dream Theater


[IV. Reflections of Reality (Revisited)]

Hello, Mirror - so glad to see you my friend, it's been a while
Searching, Fearless - where do I begin to heal this wound of self-denial

Face yourself man!
Brace yourself and trace your hell back

You've been blinded, living lie a one way cold existence all the while
Now it's time to stare the problem right between the eyes you long lost child

I wanna feel your body breaking
Wanna feel your body breaking and shaking and left in the cold
I want to heal your conscience making a change o fix this dying soul

Born into this world a broken home
Surrounded by love yet all alone
Forced into a life that's split in two
A mother and a father both pulling you

Then you had to deal with loss and death
Everybody thinking they know best
Coping with this shit at such an age
Can only fill a kid with pain and rage

Family disease pumped through your blood
Never had the chance you thought you could
Running all the while with no escape
Turning all that pain in to blame and hate

Living on your own by twenty one
Not a single care and having fun
Consuming all the life in front of you
Burning out the fuse and smoking the residue

Possessive obsessions selfish childish games
Vengeful resentments
Passing all the blame
Living out a life of decadence
Acing without thought of consequence
Spreading all your lies from coast to coast
While spitting on the ones that matter most

Running power mad with no control
Fighting for the credit they once stole
No one can ever tell you what to do
Ruling other's lives while the can't stand the thought of you

A living reflection seen from miles away
A hopeless affliction having run astray

I wanna feel your body breaking
Wanna feel your body breaking and shaking and left in the cold
I want to heal your conscience making a change o fix this dying soul

Now that you can see all you have done
It's time to take that step into the kingdom
All your sins will only make you strong
And help you break right through the prison wall

[V. Release]

Come to me my friend (Listen to me)
I'll help this torture end (Help to set me free)
Let your ego go (I can't carry this load)
You can't go through this alone (I feel so hopeless and exposed)
You'll find your peace of mind (Give me some direction)
You can no longer hide (Break out of this isolation)
Let humility (Openness, honesty)
And become what you can be (A healing tranquility)

Help me
Save me
Heal me
I can't break out of this prison all alone

These tormenting ghosts of yesterday
Will vanish when exposed
You can't hold onto your secrets
They'll only send you back alone

Your fearless admissions
Will help expel your destructive obsessions
With my help I know you can
Be at one with God and man

Hear me
Believe me
Take me
I'm ready to break right through this prison wall

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Saturday, June 05, 2004

yay!!! its 6th june! 60 years since d-day!!


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6th June 1944.
d-day.

60 years have passed since the invasion of europe began. Nothing really spectacular happened today so i guess i'll blog about d-day since i just spent 2 hours infront of the tv watching some National Geographic documentary on d-day.

So many obstacles had to be overcome just to get 150,000 men on that sandy piece of land. The allies had to get the men up on the beach at lightning speed to prevent german reinforcements from arriving. So they send paratroopers to capture key towns to create a perimeter to support the landings. They used gliders to send soldiers behind enemy lines to capture 2 bridges so that the invasion would not be held up.

Barbed wire. Mines. Stormy weather. Artillery and machine gun fire all-around. Barricades just ahead of you. 10,000 dead men altogether from the allies. How did they do it? How did they manage to muster the courage to run up that beach? I bet its even tougher than Mr Ang's training. Fear. Anticipation. Anxiety. Brave men...
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