Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Sitting. Watching. Listening.
This dark and musty place. Suffocating me. Like a painting devoid of life. A painting with only two colours. Green and grey. The faces everywhere have no emotion. They sit there gazing into the blackness, with dim lights above pouring down onto their heads. Fingerprints on the windows, ground littered with wrappers and vulgarities scribbled on the back of the seats.
I need to get out of here. Before it engulfs me. Before it asphyxiates me. And i stepped out.
Tempting isnt it? Flowing with the flow. Thinking not required. Just live life aimlessly. I dont think it was meant to be this way. Humans moving like clockwork. Getting on the bus. Stepping out of the bus. Getting from one destination to another. Working. Resting. Working. How fufiling. I just cant explain it. You have to see it for yourself.
Take a moment to take a observe all the bodies mechanically moving around you. To see what we have become. Take a moment to notice the old woman on the street selling tissue paper. Or the person next to you. Take a moment to ponder why you are doing what you are doing now.
Ok enough ranting.
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
What happened to the times when getting back results felt like doomsday? Where have the excitement and anxiety gone to? I sat there today at the back of the row.. not my usual sec 1 or 2 self.. about to burst in anticipation. And its not because i feel confident or anything.. its just this apathetic feeling.
Well.. all that changed when i got back the geog results. hahaha.. i thought i was gonna flunk it. everyone was like so cheerful after paper.. and i was just sleepy. The teacher even put a 'gd details' in red admist the illegible handwriting of yours truly. Other results were not bad.. amazed myself in chem.. math..eos. Disappointed in my ihs and la results. Dont even talk about chinese. I managed to fail even with moderation. So no conc camp for me i guess. Unless they wanna imprison me for failing chinese.. and PHILOSOPHY OF DISCIPLINES! yep. To any poor soul about to face conc camp.. cheer up. Try harder next time?
Hmmm.. went for blood test today. Stupid nurse at the hospital. She was like.. stabbing that HUMONGOUS needle into my skin. Then nothing happened. So she pulled it out, and stabbed it in again. And again. Everytime she did that i was like 'ouch!' THen i asked her what she was doing... she said she couldnt find the vein. -_-
So she poked me again and again. For about 5 times. Yep. real nice. STupid nurse.. she looked dazed. And im traumatised.
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Thursday, October 07, 2004
Ah... The sweet scent of freedom. I can feel it now. About 24 hours from now. I'll be released from this self-imprisonment.. this jail cell made of textbooks. Its not nice seeing your mates being released a day earlier than you. Yes. Stop laughing all you adv math people. Come on bio students.. lets stand up against this oppression and injustice! Lets unite and overthrow this tyranny for the sake of mankind. But before we do that.. lets mug for the bio paper.
What am i gonna do after i step out of the auditorium tomorrow? Hmm.. Tough one. I think i've forgotten how to have fun. Yep. Why do i always feel sleepy whenever i blog? hmmm.. do i blog whenver im tireD? or do i become tired whenever i blog? Intriguing question eh? Wow.
Sigh. Life is full of missed chances and opportunities. If only I could turn back time. So many things i wanna change. Perhaps things happen for a reason. Perhaps not. Anyway. What am i crapping about. That was out of point. ok bye
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Sunday, October 03, 2004
changming,xide,me,khing,mud(leon),elliot,seb(stoning),wenloong
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Saturday, October 02, 2004
Havent blogged in ages. Too friggin busy mugging. Or pretending too. The atmosphere now is so tense. The first line which escapes anybody's mouth is 'what have you studied today?' (including mine) Nobody willing to lose out. Exams has turned poor students into vampires. Living off coffee and digesting textbooks. Siigh. Im pretty pathetic now. Pouring a sachet of cadbery hot chocolate, two tbsp of nescafe coffee. milk. 3 icecubes. and boiling hot water into my nike bottle. Shake. Instant mocha. Drink. Study. Fall asleep on the floor.
Ok enough about my sad plight. i'm blogging now to relieve stress and vent my anger. Lets see.
Honours' day.
It was a dream come true of the acX team of 2004. Finally. We are finally recognised and people know we exist. They know that we are a force to be reckoned with. I think its perhaps the first time in acsi history the Xcountry team was placed right smack at the back of the shiny honours' day booklet. When i sat there in the auditorium, watching the multimedia presentation of the ccas which brought home national gold, a tremendous sense of pride overwhelmed me. If only i could relive that special moment when 6 of us defied the odds and emerged victorious. If your name is not leon, elliot, peter, kenneth, or xide you wouldnt know what im blabbering about. so anyway.
Today. I feel like punching SOME teachers. SOME teachers who CALL YOU UP INFRONT THE THE AUDITORIUM FOR NO REASON. SOME TEACHERS WHO GLARE AT ME AS IF I COMMITTED MURDER. SOME TEACHERS WHO HOLD ME BACK TO ARRANGE THE WHOLE BLOODY AUDITORIUM. FOR WHAT? GUESS. go on. take a guess.
FOR NOT PUSHING IN MY CHAIR. WOW~! THATS A REAL CRIME AINT IT?! OH YEA> its MUCH worse than cheating. Its the most horrifiying crime of them all. NOT PUSHING IN YOUR CHAIR! ok. enough bitching. sleepy. ciao.
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