Monday, November 29, 2004
Be thankful for what you have.
Jealousy and despair will not only make matters worse, but cause you to lose sight of whats important.
I would be lying if i said i was happy. Because im not. These past few weeks have been horrible. Depressing. I don't know why. Or perhaps i don't want to face up with the truth. Instead of cherishing what i have, i allowed myself to feel inferior compared to others who possess different gifts. Different opportunities.
Why cant i be this.. Why cant i be that. Why why why. Wrong.
I chose this life. I dont regret my decisions. I will not allow myself to be governed by envy and remorse. Be grateful for what and who you have. otherwise you they may slip past forever without your knowledge.
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Tuesday, November 23, 2004
1. I will be assertive.
2. I will be treated with respect.
3. I will not bottle up my feelings anymore.
4. I will not tolerate anyone who violates my rights.
5. I will be more decisive and stick to my choices no matter what others say.
This list will inevitablily grow longer as time passes but lets just start with 5.
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I'm sick of it all.
I snapped yesterday but i dont regret anything i did or said. I'm quite thankful actually. I only wished it happened sooner.
No one has the right to dictate my life. I am in control. If you dont like it get out of the way. There's no turning back now. I'm going to start afresh.
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Monday, November 22, 2004
I tried to be nice.
I tried to be fair.
But i cant take it anymore.
People just suck. Suck to the core. Laughing at other peoples' expense and not giving a fuck about what they feel. Its alright one or two just talk cock.. dont mind. Except when everyone just mutters some stupid comment just to garner some laughs. When people push others around to look good? .. actually i dont know why. idiots. bloody idiots. Are people gay? What pleasure do you get? Fuckers. Hairy ff. Bastard.
The ability to control ones' displeasure and not shoot off vulgarities is a strength.. not a weakness. Nowadays im finding it harder to control my rage. Im on the verge of punching someone now. When i dont retaliate it doesnt mean im not furious inside. I wish i had a gun and knock out certain individuals. Get it straight. You dont push me around. Dont exploit my kindness just to entertain yourself. i wont stoop to your level just to gain support or whatever.
I hate you
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004
The Da Vinci Kode. Or code.
My first book in like almost 4 years.
Havent been reading many books since primary school. Ever since the goosebumps era. Good times.. good times..
Anyway.. didnt do much today. whats new. Just woke up late. Played Fifa 2005.. cheated here.. scored a few own goals there. Read the da vinci code. I'm like addicted to the book. It's intriguing.. its adrendaline-pumping.. its captivating. Captivating enough to actually make me wanna flip the page to find out what happens next. (which never happens..) I'm so proud of myself. I read a book! How amazing is that?!
On a different note altogether.. my favourite brand of cereal has been recalled! *GASP* THe cereal i've been eating every morning! POST! NOoOO.. disaster. Some quality control shit.. pretty cool.. if i get some illness from eating Banana Nut Crunch®. I could sue them. And then die.
Bah. Im bored. Gonna watch epl highlights now.
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Friday, November 12, 2004
Its tough to work man.
Went for the job interview with Seb today at near chinatown. Quite friendly person. Very good commission.. except the product is difficult to sell on the streets.. so no wonder the commission is fairly high. Damn ironic. Seb and i stood outside Plaza Sing attempting to sell the calendar.. to no avail. Then this guy comes up to us and starts selling us this charity coupon.
Guess WHAT?!
We succumbed. And bought one. Actually seb bought one cos i had no money. (now you know why im working) So at the end of the day... we sold nothing but bought something instead. How pro is that. Anyway. At least i sold one today. And two of us are gonna deliver flyers tomorrow! Yay!
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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Another day wasted..
Another day spent doing absolutely nothing..
Another day infront of the computer..
Nothing accomplished..
Havent found any jobs..
Read any books..
Damn.. i love the holidays. -.-
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Monday, November 08, 2004
acX rawkss!
The team really bonded today man.. Even though the morning training was kinda grim and ...unfavourable.. the post-training bonding time was super fun la. Rounds after rounds of fragging one another by frantically clicking away on the poor mouse.. Yelling at the top of our lungs and laughing like dicks :P The pretty screwed up coms and oily keyboards at brother david didnt hinder the enjoyment at all.. everyone was just chilling and having a great time.
Never mind the fact we almost missed training :P ..cos we were shouting LAST ROUND and after 5 rounds we were still stabbing one another with knifes and laughing away. Then on the bus shang rong tried to change his pants in the bus with 2 girls beside him... erm.. i think he probably would have if we didnt stop him..
Shagged from morning training we dragged our heavy legs onto the track.. again. Then SERIOUS navin led training. VERY SERIOUS. One of the kraziest warm ups ever.. lol Running in V formation.. Making the whole team do some retarded dance thingy infront of the softballers.. yep. serious navin.
The workout today came as quite a blow for us.. especially since we havent really been doing much speedwork. But we really came together and supported each other. Spurring one another to complete the set even though our legs were reluctant and glued to the ground by the 15th set.. Really nice to see everyone enjoying one anothers company and suddenly the workout didnt seem that long. It was quite fun.. on the contrary..lol.
Finally.. the final chapter to the day's rolling sea of insanity. The post training talk cock-cum-break open locks-cum-bitching-cum-spraying adidas deodourant up your ass session. Yea. Navin and his brother and penis seperation joke.. Seb and his britney shit.. booo.. wen loong and the spraying of deodourant up seb's ass. Xide and his burning armpits. Team bonding man.
acX rocks.
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